2004-04-15 - 4:53 a.m.
God damn it, it's 4:52 a.m. Life is not pretty at this time of the morning. I'm at work, of course. On the plus side, I only have an hour to go, because I've been studying for my Humanities midterm that I *completely* forgot about until a girl who is in my class mentioned it when I worked earlier this evening. Oh well, it can't be that bad. It's on Rome and Greece. "It's all Greek to me!" Yeah, that's what I'll write on my paper.
I put off this research paper, it was due Tuesday, but I haven't done it yet. I'm really making a big deal out of it, and feeling nervous and anxious about doing it, which of course is the number one sign that I shouldn't be. You see, EVERY time I worry about something it's wrong. And I'm not even jinxing myself here. I have just worried over impossibilities since I was little. I don't mean like, "the moon is falling" impossiblities, I mean like I blow things out of proportion. Like, I've handed in late papers before for this class and nobody cares. And if she did care this time, what's the difference? We can rewrite our papers for a higher grade anyway. All in all, I know it will take me about an hour to write once I get started, which I will tomorrow when I'm back here working at 2pm. And I'll even e-mail it ot her so I don't have to give it to her in person. Oh, and in case you were wondering, when I say research paper, I mean it will just have a crappy bibliography at the end and possibly a footnote if I want to quote something. Not a "I have been researching this for months" type of term paper.
I hate when you know a day in advance that you won't have time to do everything you want tomorrow. I just want to do a lot of sleeping and also shower before class, but I have some plans with my friends, and I don't want to be staying up late showering because English is at 8:30. God damn it.
Anyway, Heather and I watched Smallville tonight, and it was fun. Watching it with her is a lot more enjoyable than fast forwarding through it in my room at home on the weekends.
I'm hungry.
